Well my day was already ruined before I woke up. I had two different nightmares last night. Putting them under the cut because horror stuff.

So the first one I don’t remember too vividly I remember there was stuff about Bleach characters and everything was really dark like it was night but there also weren’t a lot of colours. And stuff happened and something attacked us and all I remember is that I completely lost control of my body and it felt like my limbs were being shaken and ripped out of there socket and my bones were breaking and I was screaming but there was nothing anyone could do to help me and that lasted for quite a while before I eventually woke myself up.

And then there was the second one that I don’t remember how it started but there was some sort of apocalypses and I was a lot younger (I think like 10) and me and my “mom” (some lady I don’t think I’ve ever seen before in my life) were one the run from someone who either wanted to kill us or enslave us or something equally as terrible I know they definitely wanted to separate us and so we left town and we ended up at some sort of run down, abandoned barn with some other big group that was staying there but we didn’t tell them anything about us. And then this one lady was just like ok we don’t know what you guys did but we know it was illegal so we’re calling the police. And then we started begging her not to and she kept assuring us it was going to be alright because she was sure that the police would only want us and then the police came and started arresting everyone and she was still saying that everything was going to be OK and lit the barn on fire and I was freaking out trying to get all my stuff but my mom grabbed me and dragged me out and I was freaking out because I had to leave a bunch of my stuff and that was all that I had and I was trying to go back in and get it and I was crying and panicking and it was awful.

So now I’m incredibly exhausted I already didn’t fall asleep until like 3am and I woke up at like 8:30 and didn’t want to go back to sleep and have more nightmares so basically I’m really depressed right now and questioning everything in my life and struggling really really hard not to cut myself so yeah today sucks.