So yeah I just went from passively suicide to wanting to actually kill myself

I haven’t slept for more than a few hours each night because the internet in our room decided to just fucking stop and no one seems to want to help me fix it and I need videos playing in the background so I don’t have nightmares 

I haven’t heard from my family in like a month and a half

I barely talk to my friends because I can’t start conversations and no one seems to want to talk to me anymore

I haven’t been able to get a job in 4 months living here

And now a whole bunch of people I thought were my friends are being giant aphobes

Idk Dax is trying to help but I’m not in a good place right now