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Yarg I’m either in more pain than usual or I’m becoming immune to painkillers

I mean yes it got cold but that doesn’t explain why there is a stabbing pain in my chest.

Do you know how paranoid I’m getting having a stabbing pain where I got a blood clot.

….maybe I should go to the doctor…

So something I learned recently so apparently when you’re in chronic pain a lot your body burns through magnesium like crazy

I’ve been taking magnesium twice a day for like only a week and already I’ve noticed a difference I have way more energy and the pain is much more manageable.

IDK if any other my other chronic peeps have tried this but hey it’s working for me.

I occasionally try googling my symptoms if I think of another way of wording it or just to see if anything new pops up but it’s so disheartening.

“You’re not drinking enough water! You’re not exercising enough! You’re exercising too much! You’re not using ice enough! You’re using too much ice! I’m assuming you have hurt muscles because you’re an athlete! Have you tried this expensive diet/machine/physio therapy?”

I can barely get doctors to listen to me too and since I’m in between provinces rn my health care is all messed up and I hate it.

I was looking up wheelchairs today because I can’t even go out for a day anymore without serious pain. I am rapidly losing use of my legs and I feel like no one is taking me seriously and I’m not going to get better.

I just want to be able to walk.

Well that was a hell of a dream. My family was on some sort of airship that looked like my parents house on the inside and we were going to one of my cousins wedding and I was panicking because it was like 1pm and everyone was still getting ready so I threw on the first thing I could find which was a button up shirt and dress pants and tried to get everyone out the door but they didn’t listen to me. Then they told me the wedding wasn’t until 9:30pm so we still had lots of time.

But then I tried to go to my room to change but the bathroom was also in my room and apparently now there’s a party going on in the house and a bunch of people are waiting for the bathroom in my room and I was trying to beg people to get out just for a minute so I could change but no one would listen or if they did listen then another person would walk in right away. (Side note, one of those people were Obama, idk)

And I was so frustrated that I started like shoving people out but they were getting really mad and yelling at me and I just started screaming and covering my ears but I stopped being able to hear anything and some kids came up to me to try and show me something (they weren’t being nice about it) and I just kept screaming and closed my eyes trying to shut everything out and then my right ear started to bleed profusely and then I woke up.

This seems like one of those dreams that has some sort of profound meaning but I’m just exhausted waking up.

My parents are watching just for laughs and like this guy just said women are stupid if they get a breast reduction because of back pain because “men don’t get penis reductions because of knee pain.”

And I just there’s so much wrong with this and people thought he was funny.

I had a really bad nightmare last night that I called my sister out on her abuse and she attacked me. And I have to deal with her again tonight.

And I so badly want to call her out on her shit literally everything she says to me in belittling in someway but I’m afraid she’s gonna be like “Well if you weren’t so stupid I wouldn’t have to correct you whenever you speak” and I don’t have a response to that.