Tag: death tw

I’m thinking since I’m getting my gallbladder removed and I’m terrified of dying that I should send messages to all the people I consider friends and some others I’ve been meaning to talk to.

Nothing like the fear of death to overcome the fear of people.

So Final Fantasy 12 starts out with a couple getting married, the dude getting promoted in military stuff, dying in battle, then his widow dressed in black at the funeral.

That’s like the first 10 minutes in one cut scene holy shit.

An update on how I’m doing

Not well, I’ve been disassociating (that’s not spelled right but my phone won’t auto correct it) since the news hit

I’m still expecting to wake up from this nightmare and at this point I don’t know if it’s wishful thinking or if I actually need to wake up

I’ve stopped crying for the most part, I’ve been crying for almost 2 hours straight so it might just be that I’m out of tears I don’t know but I’m not freaking out anymore.

It still doesn’t feel completely real. Did you know Monty was a huge motivator for fixing my knees? I wanted to heal enough to get decent at DDR and challenge him to a match.

I’d get my ass handed to me, but it I think he would’ve done it knowing I spent so long just trying to get better for it.

Dax also just started making a fanmade RWBY game, he was hoping Monty would be able to play it one day.

It’s still too sudden but it’s actually starting to process now.

I was literally talking about Monty with a customer the other day

I don’t remember exactly how we got to the conversation but we got talking about Red vs Blue and how awesome the big fight scene in season 8 was and then he didn’t even know who Monty was and I told him about how like he did all the choreography and it was so fluid because of his dance stuff and yeah

This doesn’t feel real this can’t be real someone tell me this isn’t happening right now.

I managed to make it through work without breaking down into tears, I didn’t get what I was supposed to get done I just told them I felt like I was gonna throw up (which was true I still feel like I’m going to be sick)

I just have so much I want to say but I can’t think of the words I’m so heart broken Monty was the reason I got into Roosterteeth and now he’s just suddenly gone.

It doesn’t feel real I just want to wake up and have this not be real