emotophobia tw – gamerfreakathon

I managed to make it through work without breaking down into tears, I didn’t get what I was supposed to get done I just told them I felt like I was gonna throw up (which was true I still feel like I’m going to be sick)

I just have so much I want to say but I can’t think of the words I’m so heart broken Monty was the reason I got into Roosterteeth and now he’s just suddenly gone.

It doesn’t feel real I just want to wake up and have this not be real

Someone clogged out toilet

Room mate broke his knee and can’t fix it

Dax is feeling sick and can’t fix it

No one has ever shown me how to properly unclog a toilet

And with my synaesthesia just trying makes me want to throw up

And I drank a huge ass thing of iced tea and have to pee like a mother fucker

This is bullshit

Whelp I guess it was a gullbladder attack. I took the pain killers and now I’m just trying desperately to not to throw up before they take effect.

Oh yeah funny story so I bought these cranberry pill things to help with the UTI I probably have (might also be kidney infection cause by kidney stones don’t know yet) and I had taken one yesterday but I was bored and looked at the bottle and it said “do not use if you have a history of kidney stones or are on blood thinners”

Yeah good thing I noticed that lol.

I’m disappointed in myself I’ve been really sick and like dying of coughing but I haven’t said “Get Anders” once

I’m gonna have to rectify that.

I’m actually tired and I want to sleep because I’ve managed to stop coughing for a little while

But I have to go to work for another 8 hours

And of course this happens when someone’s on vacation so I get way more hours than usual.

I don’t have a day off until tuesday

I can’t breathe without coughing

My throat is raw and I think bleeding

I haven’t slept in a week

I just want to sleep

I just want to breathe

Health talk under the cut, I’m doing better though.

I feel a lot better today after last night. I coughed so hard I threw up a couple of times and then like an hour later I huge ball of mucous came out of my throat and I’m pretty sure it was what was in my lungs.

Today my sinus’ are clear and my stomach isn’t upset any more but my throat is still kinda sore (probably from throwing up all that oregano oil) so I’m still coughing quite a bit. But I should be good to work today so that’s good at least.