weight talk under the cut so tw for that

So the scale we bought came in today and I am currently 192 lbs. Thats…. 20lbs more than I though I was, I was 170lbs when I got my gallbladder surgery, I didn’t know it had gotten that bad.

So for my first goal I’m going to try to get down to 170 and see how I feel and where I’m at and go from there. 

I’m just going to have to keep reminding myself that I’m doing this for me to feel better, and not for anyone else. My weight is not equal to my worth, regardless of what my mom tells me.

I’m sorry mom but I don’t want to risk my fucking life trying to travel provinces to see family if they want to see me so bad they can fucking come here.

Seriously I work barely above minimum wage I don’t have money for this our muffler just fell off we have to get the whole thing replaced and last time I made this trip I got a fucking blood clot that should not be taken lightly this is a 10 hour drive it’s really fucking dangerous I don’t want to fucking die.