negative /// – gamerfreakathon

It’s 4am I’m still awake and I still hate myself.

I’ve been crying for 3 hours now

I think I could scream in someone’s face and they’d just ignore me.

My body is quickly degrading my mind is already gone why should I even bother.

I feel like I’m falling apart but I can’t talk about it with everyone because I’m always the person people come to with their problem so I can’t possibly burden them with mine.

Me: tries to be funny
Me: ruins conversation

Tfw you probably just annoying everyone around you so you should just stop talking forever

I just want some part of my body to work but apparently that’s too much to ask.

I kinda live a boring, pitiful existence.

Like honestly I try to believe that not every hates me but when suddenly to whole internet starts shitting on a core part of my identity it’s kinda hard lmao.

IDK I’m probably just gonna go cry like I’m also trying desperately not to hate myself but when everyone hates me it’s not easy.

I’m not in a good headspace right now think I’m probably gonna cry myself to sleep.