suicide mention – gamerfreakathon

I have no spoons to talk in the group chat even though they kinda need me but like pretty much everyone ignored me being suicidal and I don’t know how to deal with that.

Golly gee don’t I just love it when I find out people hate my existence.

Don’t I love how I feel dead inside know people I respected want to actively harm me.

Isn’t it grand wanting to die because you know your own community hates you.

While it’s a little bit comforting knowing that practically everything I’m experiencing right now can be contributed to CPTSD it doesn’t make me want to rip my heart it with my own hands any less.